Stars in my hair.
Shining Divine Mother
Gracing me
With her infinite light.
A million hearts
Beat in her rhythm.
Peace descends.
Unless we stir things up,
All remains quiet.
Beauty resides
Within our hearts
Unless we object.
Surrender
And devotion.
Nothing left.
But this.
Vanessa
All worlds must end…
Eventually.
Rebirth I trust,
It is a must.
Implosion
Explosion.
Long ago we seized to exist,
I must admit
I am having a hard time with this.
Lightly taken
Through millenia
I feel ancient
Yet so new.
Gaze at me
with your young eyes
I feel the might
Of this flight
Depart.
All things drift apart
and move together
Again.
The only question is:
WHEN will things begin
again?
Vanessa
“My God, My God, why hast thou forsaken me?”
Matthew 27:46
Who but me
Knows the pain in my heart?
Who but me
Knows the suffering I am enduring?
Who but me
Knows how hard I tried?
Who but me knows the wounds of the world?
Do we not all
Endure the suffering
Of this world?
My God, My God, why hast thou forsaken me?
Vanessa
In the vastness of your solitude
I miss You every day.
Even in suffering
There exists tremendous love.
Even under difficult circumstances
You are there,
Working miracles in my heart.
When I suffer from hunger
You come and nourish me,
When I feel thirsty
You provide me with water.
When I feel lost,
You send me someone who finds me.
When I suffer from my own ignorance,
You are there to touch me deeply,
So that I open my heart.
When there is hardly any hope left,
You instill faith.
Who would I be without You?
For it is in this nourishment of
Pain that You make me see
That there is nothing else but
You.
Vanessa
Inundated I stood at the gates of hell,
If there was any light
I could not tell.
Blinded by my own fear and rage
I tried to remember Dante’s way
So I could disappear.
Memories faded and remembrance
Could not strike
There left all my pride.
Anxiously I took a look around
But no one was to be found.
Stranger in my own land,
I took a glimpse of long-lost freedom
And finally took matters into
My own hands.
The pathway was crooked and
Not to distinguish
My anguish
Made my heart jump with fear
Took me right into the
Arms of Ereshkigal.
The seven gates
I had to pass
Albeit
My ego took a blast.
Discard I must all regalia
What once looked bright and shiny
Possessions now seem to be so tiny.
Dried and hung at the hook
It took
All my force to start
And finally to depart.
All hell is equal in their remains
And build I must trust
In the unseen.
In love and simplicity
and to trust
In my Higher Self
Who remains to be my only guide.
Agony’s prisoner no longer,
I set myself free
Just to see that no one
Can in fact reach liberty
Without the ego’s poison
To depart
From the heart.
Escaped my own fate
And now all is too late
For I must accept
That all of it remains
In a state of constant change.
Have you discovered your own hell yet?
Vanessa
Lover’s dreams
Streaming down my face,
Love’s agony leaving
From my solemn heart.
Eternally
Wandering in loneliness
Where are you now?
Forgetfulness condemning me
I wonder, where you have
Been hiding for so long?
Memories may fade
Until we meet again,
Oh heart of my Beloved.
Once we were two,
Now one,
Time has just begun to
Spin
For I am nowhere to be found
But here.
Vanessa
Devoid of romance
I drift apart.
Mimicking my joy
To mask my pain.
Never ending this game
Of avoidance.
All we do is dance in silence,
Turning around at every corner
To watch whose pain is bigger.
Dissolution never ends
And all we need to have is faith.
Faith in our own mortality
That comes at the price of birth.
Vanessa
“Midway upon the journey of our life,
I found myself within a forest dark,
For the straightforward pathway had been lost.
Ah me! How hard a thing it is to say,
What was this forest savage, rough, and stern,
Which in the very thought renews the fear.”
– Dante Alighieri, Inferno
“Ashes to ashes,
Fire to fire,
She is burning my every desire.
Setting me free,
Gracing me with liberty.
Love’s endless game,
All blame and shame
Depart
From my broken heart.
Love’s burning glance,
Offering me a second chance.
Throughout nights so terrifying and bleak
I discovered a streak
Of light
That brought me near
To my deepest fear.
Illuminating one’s own path,
I must depart
And fall back into my own midst,
Outwitted I had sought
The devil’s calamities.
But being Persephone nonetheless
I urged forward and
Overcame my own death.
Faked it,
Carried along the way to my own punishment
I felt a light descend.
My heart glowing now
For all to see
What was it that set Persephone free?
The apple I saw in her hand
Pomegranate shone through her being
Spring dawned on me
And so I hailed Persephone.
Bade goodbye all those
Who came from hell
And let myself be
Me….
Vanessa
In the stillness of love
My heart awakens to death.
Near me
I bow to you
Continuously.
Who but You
Could ever know what I need?
Who but You
Could ever know of
What my heart speaks.
Longingly
You hold me in Your embrace
Bittersweet tears
Make me die
A million deaths.
Until my rebirth
I never knew
What love could do.
Tell me,
Have You been
Always been waiting for me?
Vanessa
This morning when my consciousness awoke,
The world was dressed in silence.
Thick white snowflakes falling from the skies,
A rosebush hidden in my heart,
I felt joy pulsing through
My eternal being.
Nowhere to go now,
Oh, My Beloved.
So bittersweet
This love I have for you.
Mesmerized
I watch crystalline
Strucutres descend
To acknowledge
Grace’s beauty.
Open my heart
For in this life
All I know
Is Your love.
Vanessa
A Beautiful World 